the true me..

Some people say I am "cool, mayabang, mabait, tahimik, suplado." the first time they meet me. Hahaha! They have different impressions. But the real "me" is this: I’m a happy person! I don’t want to get old. I want to challenge and be challenged, and most of all I want to tease my sister (Heidi) all the time! It gives me joy whenever I get to her nerves. I am vain, narcissistic…but a true friend and a loving son. i’ll do aything for my friend…as in!

10 years ago…before I met my girlfriend…I used to be the "clown" of the gang. I enjoy being on the spotlight when it comes to comedy and "kalokohan". We always rode my friends car at night…shouting at people at the side of the road…throwing things at them…hitting them with wet towels just for fun! :)…you can say I’m a "Bad Boy"…in a way…I want to be like Robin Padilla…coz he’s my idol…since I was in grade school. I’ve seen all the movies that he starred on.

I do everything except drugs and drinking. That’s why I don’t have a girlfriend at the time. Though I used to have a lot of girl-friends…but nothing seriuos. All of my friends’girlfriends were close to me. They tell me everything..anything about their love life. Most of them became my best friends. I gave them advice that helped them work things out and made their relationships’ strong. "Hingahan ng sama ng loob" as they say. And it came to a point that all my boy-friends hated me for that. Ayoko kasing nasasaktan ang mga babae.

I’m the type of person that can be mean if necessary. No one can touch my sister…my family…or my girlfriend. Once you do something bad to me…I may forgive but I can never forget. I can easily get along with different type with different culture of people. Simula sa magbobote hanggang sa mayaman or government official may kaibigan ako. I have my own "real set" of friends. We call ourselves.."Squacky"…and it changed to "Caspers" when we all have our girlfriends.

My girlfriend’s name is Ma. Christine Jill Franchétte C. Balbalec. We met in 1997 by accident. My friend called me and asked me if I could come with him. He needs someone to "start" the night. Because he wants to court Jill. So I came with him. I never thought that me and Jill will become close friends. Busted ang friend ko sa kanya. Then afte a month i got fed up dating girls. Spending money and my time without any serious commitment. I decided to court her and settled for a more serious and good relationship. In December 1997, I asked her to be my girlfriend over the phone. And she said "NO". I’m the type of person once you say "no" to me, I would not insist or ask ever again. So I replied.."Ok let’s be friends." Though I was broken hearted back then, I went to see my second set of friends. They decided to go to Laguna..guess what? When I came back to Manila, I already have a girlfriend (let’s not mention her name).

Some people say…I have a strong sex appeal though I’m quite thin for my build. I enjoyed her company for 3 months. And my "real" set of friends miss me so much that they keep on calling me; and trying to set up Jill and me together. So by the "power of my friends" and some circumstances…we ended up together February 16, 1998. We get along very well. I have no problems with her. Just that she is so jealous of everyhting; that’s why we always fight.

When I got here in the States, I finally changed my perception in life. I’m happy…satisfied…and over-whelmed of what I have and where I am now. I love my family so much…especially my Mom! She’s the only person in the world that can make me cry.

When I’m alone…I always think of the time that I wasted doing nothing. I have high dreams for myself and my family. I’m not the type of person that easily opens up and tell things to others. I put some bounderies. Coz I want my problems solved alone.

I like to observe people. Sometimes they think that they can manipulate me…but what they don’t know is that I’m the one manipulating them. That’s me! I have an ultimate secret that no one knows. But it’s not something bad though..now that I’m starting to change my life for the better. To those people who thought that I can’t make it…here’s what I gotta say to you…I quote: "YOU CANNOT EYES ME ANYMORE!!!!" (from Robin Padilla’s Movie ‘Grease Gun Gang’)…in tagalog…."HINDI MO NA AKO PWEDENG MATA-MATAHIN!!!"

I play guitar…I draw…I also compose songs…(you can view it in YouTube anytime). I always watch sensible programs…like the ones in Discovery Channel…Crime Night..National Geographic…News…Politics…that can enhance my intellect. I am a visual person. I learn everything by watching television…observing other people. I learn by experience. There’s so many things I want to do in life, but I was never able to finish anything. Now I’m trying to prove that anything’s possible…if you put your mind and heart into it. I’m learning!!!! I love having conversations. Talking with someone who have something to contribute…and sensible to talk to. What I hate in people are those: "plastic…non-sense…and someone who can’t have a decent conversation with…jologs na sayaw…"(and Ian used to dance that in front of me).

What turns me on: cute…neat…sensible…true to themselves…malinis sa kuko…funny…

I want to be rich…famous…get married…have kids…and be respected

ps..now we broke up...wonders of life she cheated on me..